Neuroses

I am at fault
My neuroses are full
Self doubt and games
I push and I pull

This time I tried
But deep down I knew
My moments of need
Really want in full view

Rearview, be damned
Time machine, be kind
In the place I live
Never can I rewind

It's always around this time
I crash and burn
This time is different
It's my fault I yearn

He did nothing wrong
Not in word or in deed
He cared and he told
I confused want with my need

If he never speaks again
If he isn't my friend
If I fall from his sight
I know this is the end.